In my last post on charisms I wrote about my experience at the Life in the Spirit Seminars. Today I would like to write about my experiences at Church and home concerning the "words" that I speak about on my blogs and in my daily life. As I said in an earlier post I can't seem to find good definitions for these gifts so I am just calling them as I see them. One day during Mass, I was reading about Samuel and Eli [1 Sm. ch. 3]. When I read the words, "Here I am" and "Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening", the Holy Spirit flooded me so powerfully that I started crying. This kept happening over and over again with various Scripture passages at Church and at home. Each time, I would cry as the power of God's Word flowed through me. There was a passage in Jeremiah that would scream through my being:
"But do you gird your loins;
stand up and tell them
all that I command you.
Be not crushed on their account,
as though I would leave you crushed
before them....." Jeremiah 1: 17-19
I began to understand through the continuity of the words that the Lord was preparing to give me a prophetic gift through words as well as dreams. What I failed to grasp at the time was that he was also preparing my heart for another gift, which is not quite as pleasant. I'll get to that one later. I mention it because it seems to have a connection to the words of knowledge that He gives me. Words of wisdom and words of knowledge are different from two of the Gifts of the Holy Spirit: Wisdom and Knowledge. The Gifts of the Holy Spirit are necessary for salvation; charisms are not. Charisms are important, however, as they help others and build the Church. A word of wisdom is spoken (or written); it is the ability to understand a supernatural truth; to pierce through, simply and easily, something beyond earthly understanding. These words may just pop out of a person's mouth without any prior reflection because they come from the Lord. The word of wisdom and the word of knowledge are similar . One is communicating wisdom, the other is communicating knowledge. Both are from God. The word of knowledge is when the Lord gives a person knowledge about a person or situation that they couldn't have known unless God revealed it. This can be useful if you are ministering to someone and are unsure of the nature or the root of the problem being addressed. God also can give words of knowledge about others that are uplifting or knowledge about happenings in the spiritual realm that cannot be seen and that humans are unaware of. Another area in which they are helpful is during intercessory prayer so that you know what to pray for.
Early after my conversion I had made a life offering to the Lord, especially for those caught in the grip of mortal sin. I also offered my life as reparation for the sins and blasphemies committed against His Sacred Heart. The Lord takes these offerings very seriously. I believe part of the reason that I was given certain charisms were because of this. At the time, I did not know how much suffering these offerings would entail. I do now. Though the first words given to me were from Scripture, this soon changed. The Lord began giving me words of knowledge and prophetic words about people and the times we live in. Along with some of the words came another unpleasant gift which shocked me at first. When I was in the presence of certain people, my head would be bombarded with terrible images and sins. I was horrified, this had never happened before my conversion. I kept apologizing to the Lord until I realized that He wanted me to offer these sufferings in union with His for the salvation of the person's soul. This didn't happen with everyone, only some people. Sometimes I would be driving down the street and would pass a stranger and would get blasted with images. I quickly learned that this was a call to prayer. At other times I would get a word and temporarily suffer some weird illness or interior suffering that corresponded with the other person's suffering. I wrote about one of these experiences in an earlier post. Suicides really bothered me and the Lord often called me into intercessory prayer for those who attempted to take their own lives. In His kindness, the Lord would occasionally give me glimpses or knowledge of how powerful our offerings for others are. That is why I write regularly on the power of prayer and uniting our sufferings with Jesus.
During this time, the dreams also continued. When some of these began to actually happen I was not very surprised; I had learned that if you trust the Lord completely, His words are good. He is not out to fool people but to help them. When one of my dreams [which was very detailed] came true I was very saddened because I love this person very much. I only spoke to one person, my mother, about it. I often tell her about them and I share a lot of the words I am given with her, too. She understands because she also gets them. The funny thing is that the Lord gave me a word many years ago that I would write on the computer for Him. This was laughable because at the time we didn't even have a computer nor had I ever used one .
I will write more about this in a later post, it is getting pretty late and I am a one-finger typer. By the way, what happened to spell check?