I was dumbfounded by a recent healing. It happened after I read Colleen Spiro's book The Third Floor Window. Colleen is an incest survivor and a great advocate for children who have been abused. This is a book that everyone should read. We are the voice for those who cannot use their own yet. Here are some of my thoughts on this issue:
Children are a gift of love from God and should be treasured by their parents. Abusing a child breaks the sacred bond that God put between the child and the parent. A child's view of God is often formed by the way a parent treats the child. Parents are called to be a reflection of God's love. To not only not recieve this nurturing but to have this sacred bond abused grieves God. Incest grieves the heart of God. It causes harm to the child that only God can repair. To abuse a child in this way can cause a deep existential shame...a shame for even existing. It steals the joy of living from them. In Colleen's book you can see the hand of God reaching down to his child and healing this wound caused by another's grave sin.
Here is an excerpt from the e-mail I sent Colleen:
I thought your book was really powerful. I figured I would get upset reading it but I was surprised at the depths of my response. First it made me really angry, then sad at the horror you went through. Then I cried for every child who is mistreated because this really upsets the Lord. It harms the souls of children so much when a parent abuses them. Colleen, I was furious at your father. How dare he do this?! It is a terrible evil and I pray he realizes this. I think what bothered me a lot was his lack of repentance (making excuses isn't repentance). It sickened me. That you forgave him shows the beauty of the person you are.
Sometimes when I am overwhelmed the speaking in tongues pours out. I'm thinking the Holy Spirit had the words that I did not. The Lord started bringing up stuff from my own childhood and I got angry at my own parents. I brought the anger before Jesus, forgave my parents (I wasn't even aware that I still held anger but God showed me that this was so. I knew that if Colleen could forgive what her father did I could certainly forgive lesser things even if they were very painful), and then I said "Lord, aim me right at you!"
I had no idea that the Lord would take this literally. You see, I was born with my feet turned sideways. You can't even call it duck-like because one leg and foot were completely sideways and the other was pretty bad. Nowadays, they would probably operate (I'm guessing) but back then our family doctor made my father nail two hard shoes straight on a wooden board and I had to sleep in them with my feet tied in. She said that a babies bones are pretty soft and this might correct it somewhat. It did help and I learned to walk but my mom said I would scream and cry at night and they gave up on the board and shoes so one foot was corrected pretty well but the other was not. Within hours of reading your book and asking the Lord to "aim me straight at Him" I noticed my knees, hips, and ankles kept snap, crackle, and popping :) It was weird! My right foot (the bad one) and my leg straightened up over the next day or so and I can walk quite straight now. My husband noticed right away...I was even sitting different. (It had never occurred to me to ask for a healing of my feet. I was always this way and just sort of accepted it.) Randy took me out this weekend to get new sneakers :)
Weird, huh? I can cross my knees over with ease now, too - this was difficult before! God's hand was all over your book, I could see this as soon as I opened it.
I was struck by Colleen's words that Jesus wept with her.
Colleen, I just wanted you to know ...I wept, too.