Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Freedom of speech

"The Lord has given me


a well trained tongue,


That I might speak to the weary


aword that will rouse them."


Many of you may recognize these words from Isaiah ch. 50, it is one of the "Servant of the Lord" passages and that chapter is one of my favorites. Everything that comes out of our mouth matters. We can use this gift from the Lord to uplift, to glorify, to give comfort and to help others. It can also be used to cause harm through gossip, calumny, anger....In this backwards world this gift is being misused in a way that has never before been seen. On talk shows people's reputations are ripped to shreds, movies are filled with blasphemy, the Lord's name is taken in vain, telling lies is acceptable, bad means good and so forth. This is not true freedom of speech, this is a form of bondage! True freedom never causes deliberate harm to others, true Godly freedom builds up the body of Christ, it does not tear down unless it is not of God in the first place. There are times when we are called to speak loudly but in a peaceable manner, such as concerns abortion. I usually do my journal entries on http://heavenlyhand.blogspot.com/ but I thought this poem was fitting for this post.

Better left unsaid
these words coiled
on my tongue
ready to spring forth
I sucked them
back into my head
better left unsaid
they crept back into place
catnapped on the
edge of my lips
I swallowed them instead
better left unsaid





Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Jesus wept

Years ago I had a dream. Someone led me to a high cliff and told me to look down. When I did I was stricken to the core by what I saw, there below me was what looked like an enormous dump, but instead of trash it was filled with the sins of humanity. What really, really got to me was that strewn amongst the filth of our sins there were thousands and thousands of tiny little dead babies and even bodyparts. I was aware of someone holding my hand as I shook my head, crying, "No hope, no hope."

Apathy

Oh people
Where are your voices
Is no one there
Does anyone care
Where are the children
The ever silent ones
Where do they rest
Whose sins did they pay for
With their small world
Blood on our hands

Saturday, June 20, 2009

The Immaculate Heart of Mary

June 20th is the feast day of the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I have a great devotion to the rosary and I believe that my family and I have received many graces through her intercession. My husband and I have been married for almost 15 years and for the first 8 years of our marriage I suffered from infertility. (I have endometriosis.) We wanted a child so much and I prayed many rosaries for this. I also did the miraculous medal novena and sent a letter to Medjugorje with a friend of the family asking Mother Mary to intercede for us. Well...it worked! Each summer we go to the beach for a couple weeks and attend a nearby church. While at mass one Sunday the the 1st reading was 2 Kings ch.4 verses 8-16. When the words "This time next year you will be fondling a baby son" were read, fire went through my body! My mother and I walked out of the church after the service, she turned toward me and said, "Mary, next summer you are going to have a baby. ''I looked back at her and said "Yes, I know.'' That October (during the month of Mary, one year from the time I had done the miraculous medal novena) I got pregnant. The following summer, one year after hearing that Bible verse, I was cradling a newborn baby in my arms! We named her Michaela after St. Michael the Archangel with the middle name Rose after the Mystical Rose (one of the titles of our Blessed Mother). Thank you Mother Mary for your constant intercession and thank you Lord for this most precious miracle!

Monday, June 15, 2009

pt.2 Heart of Jesus infinite in mercy

After the Lord returned me, I just sat there dumbfounded. WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED TO ME? I thought about it for hours, I believed in miracles but nothing like this had ever happened to me before. WELL ,THE LORD WASN'T FINISHED WITH ME QUITE YET! I finally went to bed and had strange dreams all night. The next morning when I got up I had the most overwhelming urge to go to confession, it burned within me so strongly I could barely stand it. I had not been to confession for many years but I got in my car and drove to a nearby church. When I got into the confessional I poured out my sins to the priest. Much to my dismay he said,"I am so sorry but I cannot absolve you." In my rush to get rid of my sins I had forgotten that I had been married outside the church. I could tell that the poor priest felt terrible about it because I was obviously in such a state. I ran out of the church crying, got in my car, drove down a dead end road and poured out my heart to the Lord. A feeling of great love came over me and I felt at peace. My husband and I did get our marriage blessed in the church and I was finally able to go to confession and receive communion. It was one of the happiest days of my life. THANK YOU LORD!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Heart of Jesus infinite in mercy

Thirteen years ago I was given a very special gift from the Lord and I love sharing this story of the Lord's great mercy. I am a committed Catholic with a great devotion to the Rosary and the Divine Mercy. But this was not always the case. Before the Lord intervened in my life I lived a very worldly life, I wasn't going to church, hadn't been to Confession for many years and didn't have much of a prayer life. I was not in a state of grace. But all that was soon to change! I was getting pretty disgusted with the way I was living my life and I felt miserable inside.

One day I sat on the edge of my bed and cried out "LORD, I AM FED UP WITH MY LIFE!" Instantly, I was in the presence of this great light and a tremendous feeling of peace and love enveloped me. Rays emanating from the Heart of Jesus pierced my soul and I received an incredible healing. How long I was in His presence I could not tell you, there was no sense of time. No words were spoken, none were needed. It was as if scales were falling off my soul and He knew the real me underneath the filth of years of sin. No words could ever express the infinite mercy and gentleness of Our Lord Jesus Christ and I will always be in awe of His Divine Mercy. When He returned me to my bedroom I was still sitting on my bed just like before, everything around me was the same... but everything inside me was different. Thank you, Lord, my heart is always Yours.(pt. 2 in next post)