When I was a child, I was in awe of God. All of creation astounded me. I felt His Presence always. I lost this sense of God during my teenage years. As Archbishop Fulton Sheen put it, "We would like to get back to our innocence and joy, but they are cold and sepulchered." I find myself, as an adult, yearning for this profound sense of love and trust in the Lord. A good part of it has returned, but not all. I am not the innocent child that I once was and yet, still, I find myself awestruck. I like to contemplate the greatness of God:
From all eternity Love spoke. And from this Word came all that is. Every creature has their being through Him and in Him. And He is always with us, even if we don't sense it. In faith we know it. There is no escaping this all-consuming fire of God's Love. It simply is....as HE IS. The Author of Life called all things into existence. There is no being without Him. When we walk away from Him it is our loss. We lose sight of Him. God never loses sight of us. Sin can sometimes lead us back to Him by its nothingness and the misery it causes us in our spirits. I think of it as kind of a "reverse grace".
If you seek the Lord, you will find Him, because everything points to Him. If you search for truth, He will show you. All truth lives in Him.
"Consecrate them in the truth. Your word is truth. As you sent me into the world, so I sent them into the world. And I consecrate myself for them, so that they also may be consecrated in truth." John 17:17-19
"From all eternity Love spoke"
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I know what you mean about the difference between when you were a child and now as an adult and how that effects your experience of God's awesomeness. I've lamented the loss of that unfetteredness I felt in my relationship with God back then. I miss it very much but with the loss of innocence comes the loss of that sense of freedom in God too, I fear. I hope it's not the case.
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