Yesterday was Michaela's first day of school. She started 1st grade and we were both anxious. Last year she was in kindergarten which was only two and a half hours. Now it's all day. Much to my surprise, she insisted on taking the bus. Randy and I walked her to the bus stop and waved as she left. My gut felt wrenched. Randy followed the bus to school and brought her to her teacher. This probably wasn't necessary but it sure made me feel better. You can laugh. I don't mind. I realize that I am overly protective. I had to work and couldn't get the day off.
Letting go can be hard. Change does not come easily for me. It seems as if just the other day I cradled my baby in my arms and here she is now, eager for independence. I know that I have to foster this trait in her, as it is part of growing up, but a part of me wants to keep her tucked under my wings constantly. Michaela is the Lord's first and I need to remember that He has plans for her. I prayed for both of us and released my anxiety into His Hands. The Lord took care of His 2 M&M's [Mary and Michaela] and the day was sweeter because of Him.
Though life is full of change and letting go, there is one thing that never changes....
THE LORD, MY ROCK, and MY SALVATION.
Utterly Thine, O Lord!