Last week I spoke about the insight and love God poured upon me when He shared with me the dignity of a human being in a state of grace. This left after-effects. When Randy and Michaela woke up I could see this beauty in them, too. I kept hugging them and thanking God for them. Randy knew something had happened, I had been up for most of the night and I'm sure he expected me to be kind of grumpy. He was shocked by how joyful I was until I explained what happened and that I was still seeing this beauty in him and Michaela, too. Randy understood somewhat, Michaela must have just thought I was in a super-duper great mood. I saw this beauty in the children at the bus stop, too. I don't think that I'll ever be able to look at a human being in the same way again. It was a life changing experience.
If what I saw was true [I really have no reason to doubt it as I was wide awake], we shouldn't be afraid of Satan if we are in a state of grace. He should be afraid of us. The Lord cloaks us with his own power! And it's incredible! I'm not saying that we should be unaware of the enemy, I'm just saying that his power is limited and the Lord's power is infinite.
Since this night, my entire outlook on life is changed. I'm trying to be much more gentle with myself and others. I'll probably flunk here and there but overall I think that my life seems smoother so far - as if some major stumbling blocks were removed from my path. I believe I received quite a spiritual healing that night and I thank God for it. The Holy Spirit is at work constantly in our lives. This was one of those AHA! moments. Moments when the light pours in rather than dribbles :)
After I saw Michaela off to school, I went home and took a nap. I fell asleep instantly and slept soundly for an hour and a half. When I woke up, the pain had returned to my body and I felt like plain ole Mary again, at least my body did :)
The warnings haven't stopped though, I'm still getting these regularly despite the difference in the way I am viewing things. I thought maybe they would stop because I am feeling so joyful and hopeful...but the warnings are as strong as ever so I have increased my prayers for our country and the world and I think it would be good for all of us to pray for many, many, conversions. And the word is, "Prayer is needed now more than ever."
Utterly Thine, O Lord!