Friday, June 18, 2010

Because I don't want to do it

This is a bit embarrassing to admit. I am very thankful that the Lord healed me but it's been quite an adjustment. I don't have the "outs" that I had while I was ill. Before, if something was hanging over my head and I didn't want to do it I could honestly say that I didn't feel well. Now, I can't say that. For instance:

If my house is a mess it's because I don't want to clean it.
If I don't go to Mass during the week it's because I don't feel like it.
If I don't exercise it's because I'm lazy.

It's pretty difficult to admit to the Lord that I am not doing certain things on some days just because I don't want to. 

I bet the Lord is smirking up there.


  1. Mary, I love this because it is so honest. And so true for a lot of us. Sometimes the idea of healing can be scary because it means change.
    Please pray for my new grandson. He needs some tests done today. Will explain when I know more.

  2. None of us are perfect Mary and I believe God is very pleased with you.......:-) Hugs

  3. Bernie and Colleen,
    I guess I'm just having some difficulty adjusting. I know God is patient though and realizes what a big change this is for me :)

    I will pray for him right now.

  4. This is a very wise post Mary; thank you.

    God gives us many gifts, through the Holy Spirit. And with these gifts He gives us responsibility too. Responsibilitiy to use them wisely - whether our gift is a talent such as singing, dancing etc ... or knowledge, strength and so on.

    In your case, He has given you the gift of healing. He made you better. It's OK if you're taking time to adjust. It's OK if sometimes you don't feel like doing something or other.

    You've always worked hard when you were not well; and put up with the pain. He knows that all too well. I remember once, despite your pain, you cleaned up a very messy toilet in church. Many, I included, could not have done that.

    So don't be too hard on yourself. Take things easy. He will smile on you - not smirk!

    God bless.

    P.S. Praying for Colleen's grandson.

  5. Thank you for the uplifting comment Victor :) After I posted today I "fired" myself up by doing a bunch of things for Jesus. I even managed to squeeze in a walk with my family after dinner. As strange as it may sound, it is like I am starting over again (even in my spiritual life) because everything is so different and new to me. I wonder if this happens to others after being healed.

  6. Mary,

    You are a living example of a miracle. Have you thought of writing a book about it?

    It doesn't have to be too long. Just outline your experiences, your illnesses, your many cures which did not work, and how God healed you. It will be a testament and encouragement to many others suffering many ills.

    You don't have to publish it in paper form either. It could be an E Book which you place on the margin of your Blog for others to download.

    Pray about it and discuss it with your family and friends.

    If you need any help, or wish to discuss off-line, contact me by email through my website.

    God bless you.

  7. Victor,
    I will pray about it. I'm not very good with computers at all so this would be very difficult unless the Lord lined everything up for me. He can do this so I will place it in his hands. If I do write an e-book it will have to be after the summer when my daughter returns to school because I have very little free time when she is at home. Thank you for the idea. It never occurred to me to do this :) I enjoyed your e-book very much but it never crossed my mind that could I write one too. Probably because I know that you and Colleen are published authors so it seems natural for the two of you but not so realistic for me. Maybe I'll rethink that! The Lord has been giving me many opportunities lately to share my story with others verbally and perhaps He would like me to write about it too. Thanks Victor!

  8. Mary, you were honest when you were ill and bowed out of things because of it. Now you are well and honest. Keep the honesty and don't be too hard on yourself. Being well just means setting new routines and structures to accommodate health, not sickness.

    Meanwhile, I have pruning and weeding to do and it is very hot outside. I just don't want to do it right now. Maybe this week some time after I make homemade Italian sauce and take care of some correspondence I've been putting off I'll get to it. At least I'm keeping up with my therapy exercises 3 days a week!

  9. Barb,
    You are right on the mark about that! I've been thinking about this lately and realize that I need to restructure now that I am feeling better.
    Hot days aren't the best for pruning and weeding. I'm glad that you've been able to keep up with your exercise, it can be hard to do when someone is ill. God bless you, Barb :)