Thoughts on Grace. These are moments that we rest in God and just be instead of do. Resting in God is exactly what I am going to do tonight. I have never wanted to crawl into bed so badly in my life. So tonight, I unite my sufferings with you, O Jesus, and I am going to listen to what my body has been telling me to do for the last two days and I am going to sleep as long as I can. Goodnight, everyone. If I feel better, I'll edit this in the morning :)
Okay, it's morning...and I couldn't make it to work today. I usually do my posts on Friday night because I work Saturday mornings. I got a good night's rest but it doesn't always help if I'm having a major flare-up. Despite the pain, I did have some great moments with the Lord this week. Wednesday was a wonderful day, it registered low on the pain scale, I was full of peace, received my ashes and spent a great day with the Lord. Sometimes, to prepare me before the really bad days, the Lord will give me a day of love and wonder. Wednesday was one of these days. I felt His Love surround me the entire day. Days like these are very consoling for me, most days are very difficult physically because of the chronic pain. Sometimes chronic pain can dampen your spirits, but I try to keep this from happening by placing my focus on the Passion of Christ and uniting my sufferings with His. This has always been fruitful for me spiritually - once I started accepting the pain instead of fighting it. I actually want to touch upon this subject in my next post as I know many people have chronic pain. How to use it to get much closer to the Lord.