We seem to be determined to build little shacks and hovels for ourselves. The Lord, in his great wisdom, is equally determined to tear these down. It is His will to to build mansions for us. Mansions for the children of the King.
Those of you who follow my blog know that I suffer from insomnia quite often. Last week was pretty bad as far as sleep went and I was feeling pretty miserable. I was too tired to do much of anything and my prayer life was reduced to these words by Thursday, "Jesus! Son of God! Have pity on me!" I managed to get my daughter off to school and made it through the day but by evening I was a wreck. I was so exhausted that I was sobbing and repeating the Mercy Prayer over and over. "Lord have mercy! Christ have mercy! Lord have mercy!" When I am desperate I always turn to the Mercy Prayer. Jesus can't resist a plea for mercy. I went to bed and did sleep for a couple of hours. When I woke up it was 1:00 a.m. and I was instantly wide awake. I aimed a few prayers toward heaven and tried to relax and fall back asleep. No go. I said to the Lord,"Well, you must really want my company pretty bad so I'll get up." I went into the living room, sat on the couch and started talking to God. Within minutes I was surrounded by intense love. Beyond words. All pain left my body and my senses became ultra-alert. I smelled the most beautiful odor. I can't describe it. From the top of my head to the tip of my toes I felt the presence of the Lord. Heat and love flowed through me. My body was not only pain-free, it felt better than great. Perfect even. Perfect love, perfect peace... I can't quite describe it. It wasn't an out of body experience, I was totally aware of everything. Then the Lord showed me the dignity and beauty of a human person in a state of grace. The indwelling of the Trinity makes us glorious! He showed me myself this way. I was beautiful and so shocked! I kept saying to the Lord, "You do this for us?! What are we that we should be given so great a gift?" The Lord answered, "You are children of the King." Tears of joy were running down my face at this point. Deep down inside me I had thought I was ugly. (I'll speak more of this in a later post as I think quite a few people have problems with their self-image.) The love was so profound! He treasures us! Really, truly, treasures us! Our prayers are heard instantly and held with love. We are surrounded by saints and angels who want to help us, they are just waiting to be asked. They love us dearly and it gives them great pleasure to intercede for us and help us. We must pray properly though and not ask for things that will harm us. God wants us to come to him with all our needs. He deeply desires to give us good gifts. He wants to love us right into our heavenly home...if we let him. I never, ever, felt love to this degree even during previous experiences of his love. He loves EVERY person on earth this way - NONE are excluded. The truth is: We walk away from Him....He would never walk away from us. We are God's children. Children of the King.
Lord, in your great mercy, may these words touch the souls of those who are hurting. Show your children this beautiful love that flows endlessly from you... a love beyond all measure. Hear my prayer, O Lord, the wounds of your children are great but the power of your love is greater. I pray this prayer in the name above all names, in the name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.
Utterly Thine, O Lord!